Before the Throne: An Encounter

by Deborah

I was at the back of an enormous room filled with a multitude of people. A kingdom anthem reverberated all around me. It felt like I was actually within the song and part of the multitude worshiping Him.

I see Your kingdom come like the dawn of the morning, Your presence like the mist after the rain.
I see the throne with angels prostrate before the King of Kings and Maker of the Universe.
I see the book of life open and the living Word reading the names which are recorded in it.
I see the scribes of heaven searching through scrolls—the scrolls of those who are earnestly seeking to manifest all that was written about them from before the beginning of the world.

I see the four living creatures turning and worshiping the One who is worthy.
I see the seven stars, the seven Spirits which are before His throne.
I see the thunder and the lightning, joining with the thunderous chorus of voices all around—millions of people worshiping the One who sits on the throne.
I see the Lamb who was slain from before the foundation of the world. He sits on the throne and has been given the name which is above every name.

When His name is proclaimed in the heavens, every knee will bow, every tongue will confess, “Jesus Christ is Lord.” And all the heavens declare in one harmonious sound, “Holy, Holy, Holy is He, the One who sits upon the throne.”

I was at the very back of the throne room. Love and acceptance emanated from all who surrounded me. They were in union with the grace that emanated from the throne. However, I could also feel the Spirit of the Fear of the Lord. He was very close. I felt His presence as a weight around my shoulders. Suddenly I felt nudged forward. As I moved forward someone grabbed my hand. I turned and recognized Lady Wisdom and the Spirit of Might. There was a forward thrust like a wave beneath me. We moved with the flow. Realizing that I was now closer to the throne I stopped and whispered into Lady Wisdom’s ear, “What is happening? I was very comfortable where I was. I do not need nor want to go any closer.” As soon as I had spoken the familiar weight of the Spirit of the Fear of the Lord came around me again. His voice reverberated in my spirit, “Go, you have been summoned!”

My knees started to buckle but the Spirit of Might caught me in His arms. He lifted me up and carried me. This wasn’t the first time he had carried me. As He walked the multitude parted, creating a pathway right up to the throne. I felt so small and just wanted to hide. Many questions ran through my soul and fear started to grip me. Was I ready to meet Him in the presence of this multitude? What if I could not stand in the midst of such holiness? All would see my shortcomings. Lady Wisdom bent over and whispered in my ear, “You know better. You have been made in His image and that which is thrusting you forward is His deep calling out to your deep. Let go of that which is soulish. You are now in the Spirit realm.” Reassured, I took a deep breath.

As we came closer to the throne I heard a peculiar sound. It seemed like the crowd was clapping in time with a very specific rhythm. Suddenly it dawned on me—the crowd amplified the heartbeat of the Father. They were totally in sync with Him. It was incredible. It gave me the boldness to stand on my own feet again. The Spirit of Might let me down from His arms and stood to my left. The Spirit of Fear of the Lord continued to be around me like the weight of a mantle.

I was only ten meters away from the throne. It was surrounded with thunder and lightning. The living creatures with their many eyes were visible to me for the first time. It was terrifying, but also exhilarating. The Spirit of Might interrupted the moment, “Now it is your turn to move!” The weightiness of the Spirit of the Fear of the Lord intensified all around me. The weight drew me closer to the throne. The closer I came, the heavier the glory became, until I sank to my knees. I lay prostrate as waves of glory radiated through me.

I don’t know how long I lay there but I knew for certain that God was operating on my heart. It was painful, but at the same time I wanted it to happen. I could see the purpose. Something was pulled out of me. I was stripped of myself until I lay there naked and incapable of doing anything. I wasn’t afraid anymore. His surpassing glory had overcame all my earthly and soulish reactions. Some sort of covering was put over me. It totally covered me. The multitude started worshiping again. Only then did I realized that they had been quiet ever since my initial movement toward the throne.

As I lay there covered with the new garment my thoughts were drawn to Hebrews 12:1-3. Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him He endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider Him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

The Father interrupted my thoughts: “Come!” My friends, the seven Spirits, who were now all standing around me, helped me to my feet. I touched the new garment. It was feather light. I had been stripped of the burdens and the sin that had entangled me with the worries of life. I stood, eager to twirl with girlish delight. I loved the new garment! I ran to the Father and heard the thunderous clapping again, although this time it was because of the excitement of the multitude. They were cheering me on! I stood before the throne of grace with new confidence. He held out His arms. In them I found the safety I had so desperately craved and could not find anywhere else. He held me for a long time until my heartbeat was totally in sync with His. He was realigning me and preparing me for my next season.

He looked into my eyes with great love and tenderness, “Go and sin no more. Whenever you do not trust all that I have promised you, burdens and weights cling to you. It is not My plan or My purpose for you live like this. The only way you can rid yourself of these weights and burdens is to come daily like this. They will be removed through My presence. You thought that you knew this, but you have seen once again how easily these things entangle you. Now my precious daughter, go in My freedom and light, and be who I made you to be. Remember, you carry My glory. My love and My joy will be with you so that you do not grow weary or lose heart.”

With this He touched me with His scepter and I was back on the earth.

© 2020

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